Dear reader, these are just some words.

It’s been a while….

I haven’t gotten this feeling in a while. That feeling of falling for someone. That feeling of complete hapiness and at the same time, completely losing yourself.

Like they’re all that matters.

But it’s somebody you didn’t like before. A different kind of like, because you like something about this person that someone else didn’t have.

I wish that this was someone I had a chance with. Why does he have to be such a big part of my life? I mean, school and b—- and c——- and…. Oh life, you mess with me..

Meh. In the words of Brian, IIWII. It is what it is..

for the sake of the post, it is april 20, 2012

this date marks one of the most memorable moments in my life. actually, it was two years ago today.

april 19, 2010. this is the reason why it even happened.

it was the day of the invisible children rally at school and my significant other, at the time, was going to play at it. i couldn’t go see him.

i had always tried to be supportive of anything he did, but i always seemed to be away. it made me sad that I couldn’t go. so I just talked to andrew & maryanne. i told them what was on my mind.

i talked about him and other matters. i felt upset about everything and they told me things about themselves. at one point i didn’t know how to react.

i cried.

minutes later he saw me and i asked if my eyes were red. he said no and with worried tone asked if i had been crying. i was honest and said yes.

we didn’t have time to talk it through, as we usually did. so we made a date for the next day. he was so concerned you know I’ll always be here for you whenever you need me

:’)

then i pulled away from him. he leaned forward and kissed me. it was at that moment that i died a little inside. why? because i needed to in order to awaken like i did.

it was a new world i was exposed to. it was my first kiss.

and it was beautiful.

We’re a generation of dreamers and hopeless romantics… and we’re damn proud of it.

(Source: gabebondoc)

I want to text you and tell you that I love you. I want to call you and tell you that I love you. I want to see you and tell you that I love you. I want to hold you and tell you that I love you. I want to kiss you and tell you that I love you. I want you to know that I love you. Even now. With all my heart.

Too bad I will never be able to do so.